Hope growth please

Lost my phone at work.

very frustrating.

hit and run has got me freaking.

very annoying.

and falling in love with a fantasy has got me set up for dissapointment.

once,
just once.

could things work out better than imagined? expected?

ever dreamed?

oh by some chance of fate could my god have a surprise waiting?

him saying,

"this is exactly what I wanted for you all along.

and everything in your life was leading up to this point Katelin"

what a magical revalation that would be.

but here I take it with ease before my mind spoils it.

hearts in it to win it.

but I crave structure and direction.

I crave romance and role models, who can be peers  who can be dears,

dear Lord,
this life sweeps me to a point of waiting to be off my feet,

and to dance like only you would believe.

I don't care that no one here knows what I'm capable of!

not anymore.

I know exactly what I am capable of and I ask ever so gently for that structure and path,

for a hope growth romance.

you built me for this my dear, sweet Jesus.

you sing to me in the night,

but my dear  he sings to me in my life.

he senses the place where I lie,

and he ponders all of the reasons why!

he aches for me to rise!

his heart is in his eyes,

and I see it,

my dear I love you for it.

but to believe the way I do,

the way that is only clear to you,

I worry about meeting the one I adore for he is my hope,
 and I his muse.

he stands behind me this time around,

he says that he is much older now,

I love him,

but I know my dear,
I do not need him so.

A bluff he called,
hes older now you see.

I am older now the key,

I realize for the two of us to meet in perfect harmony,

is you.

my love,

My dear sweet precious Jesus,

is you.

make me new,

make me clean,

lead me there,

I beg of thee.

and if  it doesn't come to be I still will praise and worship.

Jesus Name  put christ before me.

Put christ before me.

shed light on the road please.

Love Kate